I let the water spill over me~ I want to wash this away. Gently my tears join in with the rest of the water dancing at my feet mocking me, I wonder how I am ever going to get through this. today is not a good day.
My baby is sick. Really sick and I am afraid.
I am trying to trust, to hand over this piece of my heart into able hands but I can’t let go- not even for a moment for fear that I will lose him. I can’t lose him, I am not that strong.
Yesterday was a better day, but tomorrow Declan will have an MRI and a blood transfusion and then this thing is really real, and that scares me.
I can’t talk about this anymore for fear that I will crack, split open and reveal the fear amid darkness that envelopes me.
I am not this strong, or am I?
If I trust Him with the little things than why can’t I trust Him with the big things.
The ultimate test of faith. A mother and her child. Fear and piercing pain. Hope and a peace not of my own. I feel it, now I just have to believe it.
I will trust in you Lord, for you are my strength for alone I am not that strong. But with you Lord all things are possible.
Pray I can be that strong. I need to be for him.
Dear Melissa. I am so very sorry to hear you precious baby is sick. Our family will be praying for him and your family. Xo
Mel, I am so sorry to hear this as well. My heart is breaking for you. I am praying for Declan and your family.
-Cheryl
Alone, none of us would be strong enough to endure something like this. But with God – YES I believe that you can be. You have many voices raised up in prayer on behalf of your sweet babe and the rest of your family. I hope you have a good support system out there already who will be able to walk alongside you. And praise the Lord for the paternity leave that Tim is on right now. I love you. xoxo
Oh look how precious he is, looking up at you. See the love in his eyes, they are the love from HIS eyes. You are not alone. God is with you, as are we in spirit and prayer. I see hope in his little face, and lots of spirit, which will help him, and you both, carry through this horribly difficult time. Lots of love to you all, Aunt Leslie, Uncle Rick, Michael and Christopher. Xoxoxo
Sending you love and prayers xoxo
Haven’t stopped praying since I heard…love beyond all love is being sent to your precious family tonight. God is faithful…
Of course you are strong Melissa. You are a mother full of love, faith and hope. And above all, you have God’s strength which is infinite and knows no limitations.
My heart aches for you and your sweet little boy. You and your family are in my prayers. Love and hugs to you, my dear friend.
Hi Melissa, We are praying hard for your family. Remember, God never gives you more than you can handle. You are an amazing person.
Nadine
Praying for you and your family. Sending you lots of love and hugs. xxxx
My words are no comfort to a worried mother, I know that. So I trust that God will meet you as you cling to Him in this difficult season. He is the only one who can give your heart the comfort and peace it needs and I know that what the world considers to be our “worst” is often what God uses to be our “best”. Praying for you all.
Praying for you all….this scripture has comforted me often, I pray it helps you now as you navigate this storm.
Isaiah 41:10 (KJV)
Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble Psalm 46:1
Prayers for you and sweet baby boy. God’s watching over you and your family.
Marylea~
Mel, I am not sure what I can say to make you feel better, to make all this go away – please know we are thinking of you. I am praying for baby Declan. What a gorgeous picture – his strong spirt shines through-what a smile:) I am here if you need to chat – 2269344834. Thinking of you – we are all thinking of you (my mom and dad are praying too).Love you lots and lots XO
I know he will be just fine…mother’s know these things…you are a very strong women and everything will be OK soon. We are praying for him…and you…and HAPPY BIRTHDAY we send our love to you in hospital today…please give that beautiful boy a kiss from gramma. all our love mom and dad xxxxx
praying GOD would give you & your family peace and comfort during this time…praying for restored health for precious little declan! <>
Cling to HIM! He is with you through it all. Oh Mel, stay strong. Breathe deeply and don’t allow fear to eat you inside! Remember, Our Lord is Our Strength and Peace. Praying with you Mel…for you and your family. Maria
He is so beautiful…. as are your words of love for him. We are sending deep and heartfelt prayers for you both.